'Today I saw the future. She was sitting in a lawn chair in the center of the road with a sign that said, "Don't go this way." She doesn't always take the direct approach. She might camouflage herself behind traffic jams, alarm clocks, burnt toast and deadlines causing the urban observer to believe she's really not there. But no matter what, she always leaves a little trail of hope leading to her infinite arms.' – Monique Duval
I love this quote. Having just celebrated a birthday, I have been a bit reflective this last week or so. I wrote down the jobs that I've had and the major life milestones by decade. Birth-10 was thankfully uneventful and pretty traditional. My second decade was much more eventful. We adopted my younger sister, my parents were divorced, I accepted Jesus as my Lord and at 18, moved out on my own. Ages 20-30 saw the most major changes in my life. A serious, long-term relationship ended, I graduated from Bible College, moved to Kansas from California, got married and had Hannah. Age 30-40 were quiet years as I had our second child and stayed home much of that time raising our two girls. Ages 40-50 were the years of the most incredible opportunities thus far: I was a Christian School Principal, traveled throughout Canada on my way to and from British Columbia and Nova Scotia, and got my job at The Angel Company. It also was the saddest time of my life thus far, as I lost my mom.
I won't bore you with the myriad of jobs that I held down since the age of 15. I just wrote them down to see if I could see my future sitting in a lawn chair. I also wrote them down as a record for my girls. At the ages of 17 and 20 they continually feel pressure to know "what they want to do" with their lives. I look at that decade in my life and I had less of a clue than they do. As I look back, I can see that my goals and destinations were often camouflaged. The direction was sometimes right there in front of me disguised in ordinary events and seemingly insignificant decisions. But I've learned that each right decision; each time I've listened to that still, small voice (that occasionally screams!), I've remained on the right road. Each wrong decision has had its consequences, but none so terrible that I haven't been able to learn from them.
And so it is, that as I begin a new decade, I look forward to the opportunities it will bring. I have learned that things don't always go as planned and that it is ok. I have learned that I may think I know what I want to do, but that an unforeseen option could be even better. I have learned not to despise the inconveniences and traffic jams that may have even kept me from a major accident. I don't know where I will travel or how things will go but I am determined to travel that 'little trail of hope'. Perhaps even more importantly, I have purposed to leave a bit of a roadmap for my girls, as well. There is an old song that I love whose chorus says, "May all who come behind us find us faithful." That is it in a nutshell. When they look at my life, THAT'S what I want them to see!
Navigating Life's Roads With You,