Ok, so I neglected to get a blog posted yesterday and was disappointed! I won’t go into all the reasons I ran out of time in my day. I will, instead, just share some random thoughts. I hope something speaks to someone!
Scenario #1: Today I drove through the car wash. I got to the starting point, where they yell to tell you to put your car in neutral and take your foot off the break. I immediately complied, went to #4 on my current favorite cd “10,000 Reasons” by Matt Redman and enjoyed my mini-break. As my car made its way through the tunnel, I thought about how much easier life might be if I took my hands off the wheel, stopped hitting the break, and let God be God.
Scenario #2: I recently heard it said that a mother is only as happy as her saddest child. I don’t think it’s just me… seeing our children sad, CAN make us sad! I know, however, that as a Believer, I just can’t let myself go there. I am called to a walk of faith. So, yesterday, I start getting texts from my daughter. Fresh heartbreak, new pain, anger and frustration. So hard to hear. No answers seem right. Not so coincidentally, in the midst of these texts, she got a call from her friend who was in extreme pain and needed my daughter to drive her to the emergency room. After hours at the hospital, at 10:00 p.m. they show up hungry and exhausted. Daughter’s friend has a staph infection. They give her powerful pain pills to help. Daughter’s broken heart pain has no painkiller to remedy. We talk about both. We have no answers. This too shall pass, but still hurts in the meantime.
Scenario #3: Just this week, we received a call from someone who had been thinking about my mom and wanted her number so he could call and talk to her. Having to tell him that mom had died…that it had been four years (so why does it now feel so fresh?)… that we really had tried to find him to let him know…was difficult, to say the least. We talked about all the good memories our family has with him and promised to stay in touch. Today I took red roses to the cemetary…for him… and for us.
It’s called life. We all have our stories and our incidences that interrupt our everyday responsibilities, relationships and routines. Many times, the only thing we have control over is how we choose to respond.
As I close, thanks for enduring these random ramblings. So as not to veer too far off track, I will tell you about one little random act I did today. One evening I went back into the office where I work because I had forgotten something. The cleaning “crew” was there. A mother and her daughter. Her daughter came to empty out the shredder that’s in my office. I asked her if she was the one who usually did that and she smiled shyly and answered a quiet yes. So today, before I left work, I left the last of the little boxes of chocolates on top of the shredder thanking her for cleaning our offices and emptying the shredder. Just a little thing, but hopefully it brightened their day.
Abundant Blessings to You This Weekend!